The word “theology” used to scare me. I felt like it was a word that was reserved for the hyper spiritual. For the elite. Pastors. Elders. For those Christians who seemed to have so many parts of God figured out. As a young believer, I remember having a mixture of awe and envy at the way some of these Christians wielded their knowledge of God with such clarity and focus. Deep inside I wanted a piece of what they had. I wanted the confidence of being a mature Christian.
As an older Christian, 1. Theology doesn’t scare me and 2. My confidence comes from God. As I study God, who He is, what He’s like, I realize that there is nothing to be intimidated about. There is nothing to be afraid of. In Jesus, theology is made clear. God was unwilling that thoughts concerning Himself would be nebulous. He wanted His creation to know Him! “Let us then approach God's throne of grace with confidence, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our time of need.” (Heb 4:16) As I study The Scriptures, meditate, read commentaries, pray, listen to sermons I find myself growing in confidence. Timidity is replaced with a certain boldness as I approach my God.